All these Parallels will they meet in infinity?

It started as a joke. Raphaela and I had a hot chocolate at the lovely Kater und Goldfisch in Berlin-Wedding. After finishing I asked her to read the tea leaves. She looked at what was left of the homemade chocolate and explained:

“I see several streams that run parallel. Like rivers. They are in rocks in them but these rocks don’t really block the streams. All these rivers run into a great lake. At the end of the lake there is a huge mountain.
I can also see a cat. She sits with her back to the mountain. And there is an eye that watches over the whole scene.

She described my life very accurate. Her words addressed the issue I am dealing with right now:

When will this mess of my life make sense?

My interest that wanders from writing to coaching and from photography to meditation.

In my head I had this thought: To be successful I’ll have to find the one thing that is mine and then follow my passion. I’ve got to be consistent. But how could I when my curiosity drags me from one thing to another. I was neither consistent nor had I found my passion yet.

Well, my wife knows me well. And she told me exactly what I needed to hear:

“Don’t worry”, she said. “Just follow your instincts.” That gave me confidence. I am not an hopeless case. That all of this will make sense in the end.

But let this give a second thought. Isn’t it that all parallels will meet in infinity as mathematics say? It might be that infinity is a little bit to far away for me to wait for. “I want the world and I want it now!” Jim Morrison shouted. “I wanna live and I want it now!” the Ramones sang. These songs I would like to sing along with.

I felt unsatisfied with the answer. Of course I follow my instincts.  I always did. There is no other way for me. But if I am going to live my life like this I have to accept that the outcome of my actions doesn’t count. Enjoy the ride is all that there is. And find the beauty in what is.

Love what you do

I take pictures since I was a child. I remember a photo I took with the camera of my parents when I was 13. If you ask when I became a photographer I would mention this photo. It stayed with me a told me that I have the talent to capture something with the camera there are no words for.

Over the time my equipment changed. I love to take pictures of people outside with a natural light. I never dared to become a professional photographer. I knew that my photos were good and I also got a positive response every time I showed my pictures my friends.

So what held me back? I just could not imagine that I can make a living of my talent.

At the end of September Foto Meyer organized a trade show. I went there to attend some workshops for free and listen to some professional photographers talking about their art and craft.

Ulla Lohmann told her story how she sneaked her way in to become a wild life photographers for BBC or National Geographics.

She gave some advice how to aproach people and how to get a good picture of them.  To get a model release is a great issue because without it you cannot sell  your pictures to the magazines. She told us how to get a model release from people who have no idea what that is.

Kai Strut talked about his way to success and that his intuition guided him. That he had it all and lost it all. And how his intiution helped him to reinvent himself.

Jens Burger showed some of his work he did for Fujifilm. When he was asked: Who will buy these pictures? He repied: I just do this for fun and for your entertainment. So I hope you enjoy it.

I took some pictures at the workshop. But what was my true intention to  be at this trade show? It seems like I wanted to know something. Do I have what it takes to be a pro?

Do I have what it takes to be a pro? Well, it looks like all it takes is to have the guts to just do what you love. To focus on the joy of the work and don’t pay to much attention to the question: Will it sell.

So do I have the courage to do what it takes to become the photographer I already am?

Do you life a magical life?

For years I am trying to solve the riddle of my life and my self.

It seems that my life only works the magical way. In a world of algorithms, challenges and goals this is hard for me to accept because it makes me feel like an alien.

I always had a strong intuition which led me to places where i can grow emotionally, personally and economically. But still it is hard for me to use the intuition as a foundation of my life.

To give you a glimpse of my intuition and what I mean with my life works only magically I will tell you what happened to me last week:

I helped my friend in moving to her new home. A few years ago we worked together in an organic bakery. Although we got along pretty well with each other I had only loose contact with her.

I send her a massage from my vacation on Sicily because the that she had been there and she liked the island.

She wrote me back that she is moving to a new home. I answered her that if she needed help she could ask me any time.

She was so happy about my offer. She had asked all of their friends for help but nobody had time. So she didn’t dare to ask me although she had thought of me.

I was glad to help her. We haven’t seen each other for more than a year.

A lot of people say that it is hard to get a flat in Berlin. That has never been my experience. Also my friend told me a different story how she got the new flat.

She lived for more than seven years in a WG with changing flatmades. She wanted t find out in which direction her life will go and had come to the conclusion that she needed to change places.

On day she went to a marriage party although she didn’t felt like it. There she met a woman who told her that she all how away for a year and needed some to look after her home. She will leave in October which was only a moth from that day. My friend needed a new home by October. They liked each other and the rest is simple.

Coincidences you may say. You might be right but it happens all the time.